welcome back, and I'm bad at things

The summer is now drawing to an end, seeing as I start in school again tomorrow, and so it is, back to school - back to blogging. I thought I'd kick off with a rather personal one, because I had to say goodbye to Chris this Friday after having spend four out of my six weeks off with him.

I thought I'd  tell about things I'm not good at, you could in fact say I'm terrible at more than one of them.

1. I'm not good at breaking a habit, people who know me just a little have probably heard me say at some point that I'm slight OCD, I'm not the "I like to put all my pencils in order, I'm sooo OCD" kind, I'm more of "the so terrified of germs that I have to wash hands three times before bed" kind of OCD. And I've for the last year tried to get rid of this habit, partially because my family is starting to worry, but also because I myself is afraid of what it'll turn into if I don't stop it now. At the same time I've watched Chris get rid of his nail biting habit, one nail at the time, and while he's been succeeding, I keep finding myself at the sink before bedtime. It can take years before I kick a habit, and it's always been that way, so yeah, not what I'm best at.

2. While I'm terrible at getting rid of an old habit, I'm equally bad at getting into new habits, like when I go travelling, you rarely find milk with the same low fat percentages as in Denmark, so I simply don't drink milkI till my body screams for it.

3. Another thing I'm truly bad at is falling asleep, even after a long day, I sometimes can't sleep before 3 or 4, and if I'm in my own bed it gets even worse. I can lie in the bed for hours just trying to fall asleep, some nights I read more than I sleep, because even though I'm tired it's easier to read than to sleep.

4. I'm bad at telling people what I really think, which has resulted in me agreeing to things I didn't mean just because I'm unable to say that I don't agree. It does also mean I've lost friends in the past because I couldn't figure out how to write a simple Facebook-message stating that I miss them. I guess most people have something like this with their crush, but I have it even worse with just my family. At some point as a rebellious teenager I decided that it's uncool to tell your parents you love them, and so I haven't for years, though I do of course love my parents it just feels to weird to tell them now. I really hope I'll get better at this in the future.

5. Last but not least I'm terrible at goodbyes, I don't like goodbyes, I guess that goes for most people, but I'm utterly terrible at them. When I look back at every important goodbye in my life, I always did something wrong, and in some cases I even decided that I'd rather pretend I forgot to say goodbye than actually doing it. My most recent goodbyes have mostly been with Chris, and I've always been the overly emotional one, and I guess it's natural to be emotional after having said goodbye to the person you love the most, but I'm terrible at dealing with it. I'll usually hold it in till I'm alone, and then go through the whole goodbye again.

And now here I am having to do one of the things I'm the most terrible at, saying goodbye, so ehm, I guess, that's it...