The Queen Of Goodbyes

"And I was your silver lining
As the story goes
I was your silver lining
But now I'm gold"
That's how Rilo Kiley worded it in the song "Silver Lining", and it hits home for me, because though I've stated previously in another blog that I'm terrible at goodbyes, I'm also amazing at them.
That is, once I've decided it's really goodbye, when a person has hurt me one time too many, or I see that all we really do is fight about everything, I am out of there as fast as I can.
I've simply learned that saying goodbye is better than staying in an unhealthy friendship or relationship. I've been told that I'm cold-hearted before, and I get why it can be seen that way, but it's not how I see it myself (who would ever like to consider themselves as cold-hearted?) I'm really good at pushing people away, but at the same time I treasure the people that I keep in my life all that much more. Because I push away the people I consider bad for me, I only keep the people I think are good for me and those are the people I really value.
Anyone who knows me (and I think Cecilie can nod knowingly to this) will have known about my fights with people, they can be really rather bad and go on for a long time - you really don't want to get in a fight with me!
We all have our faults, and one of mine is my logical and slightly cold nature that makes me throw people out of my life because I'm not sentimental enough to keep someone who hurts me in my life.

- Sidsel out