Where my happiness comes from

Today I thought long about what I should write for this week’s blog. While thinking I hummed a song or two and then an idea came to my mind: why was I happy? Just to clarify something I hum when I’m happy which means I hum/sing a lot. But why is that? Often I feel like there’s nothing to be happy and satisfied about and I feel like life is trying to kill me on purpose. I do complain a lot about how shitty my life can be but I also think that I can happy for just the smallest and most silly thing. Today a friend of mine asked me why PE was better than yesterday (we play and do the exact same things at PE each time) and I answered: “Because the sun is shining.” The weather, a nice but also annoying thing all people have to deal with, made me happy today.

Now it’s not the weather which decide what mode I’m in. I think that the music I listen to have a huge influence at it as well. I’m one of those people who listen to music when I’m in the shower and yes I do sing along even though I’m the worst singer ever. Depending on the music I listen to in the morning my mood changes. If I listen to Mika I usually turn out to be very silly and very optimistic during school. On the other hand if I put on Alicia Keys or sometimes Dearth Cab for Cutie I can be rather quiet and thoughtful, a rather emo-kid even though it’s difficult. I laugh to easily so I can never be a real emo-kid.

Okay the last thing I want to mention in this weird stream of thoughts I’m having is the most obvious of them all: my friends. No one in the world can make you as happy as your friends. Somehow all my friends manage to smile and make me laugh every day, always. Sometimes it’s enough for me just to see their faces and I’ll suddenly have a huge smile on my lips. Often I get a smile back in return or maybe a hug. Because I’m a big fan of hugs, everyone I know knows that. But my point with this blog is this: it’s the small thing in life which makes me happy - maybe you as well - but it’s also the people around me who makes my life worth living. Thank you, all of you! You don’t need a greater greeting than that, I’ve already wrote a blog about how much I love you guys. So that better be the ending of this blog…